i like the rain when it's warm out and i don't freeze when i walk to class!!! anyway that's not what i was going to write this journal about! hahaha

alright so i am so happy that me and amy got things worked out! classic girls right here i gave her and hug and then we sat there crying...shiiiit i have to go to class now!! oh well that was a relief!! and now with another one of my friends...i seriously don't know what i did! he says hes not mad which makes me happy but i still think somethings wrong because when i imed him yesterday he said wow....what? i don't want it to be like junior year! i don't know if you read this but..... i just want it to be like senior year when we were just friends and i didn't feel dumb when i talked to you. and you called me to do stuff, i know that's not really a possibility right now since you're there and i'm here but you know what i'm saying...... i have had SO many good times with you just from senior year and the summer after! not to mention before junior year! i don't know i guess thats all for now...i have to go to freaking class...i just thought that i would put that out there....catch ya on the flip side

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mood: awake music: kenny chesney

alright so i kind of filled you in on the first night that i had at purdue! but nows time for the real details!

Friday started off i moved all my shit from my dorm room back to my house! thanks dan for all the help of carrying that shit to our van! then i get home and get ready and wait for gina to call...poor girl didn't get off work til 530 so we got started a lil late on our little road trip! we had to make a pit stop at bdubs for gin-AH cuz she forgot to pay for her food...and then made a pit stop for rachel to go pee at the citgo! hahaha she was in there forever going pee! and right when she comes out she says "that was the longest freaking piss of my life!!" mind you there's two more ladies waiting for the bathroom at this time! they look at her like she's psych but it was freakin hilarious! oh well it's cool we eventually get there and it's like 1030...and we take our crap to cabes room and then we head to tke!

TKE: hmm....where to start where to start!? hahahah so we're in the brother lounge cabe makes us some orange drink...not too shabby!! i drank that and then got another and drank half then rachel wanted me to play beer pong so i drank the beer that i had to and then finished my orange drink then took a shot with regina and then more orange drink and another game of beer pong and then i guess i'm told i played another after that and then i apparently had another shot! i don't remember too much after that...til i got a piggy back ride from ben with rachel holding my ass up so i didn't fall off all the way back to cabes room?! hahah niiice! thanks rachel but then i remember laying on the coach and cabe, josh, colin, joe, ben, rachel, and bethany were taking care of me making sure i didn't choke myself to death as i'm hanging over the trash can throwing up and joe wiping my mouth and blowing my nose! and someone holding my head up! and people talking and telling cabe i just wanted to sleep but he told me to keep throwing up! and then saturday morning i got up around 745 cuz i figured i lost my dignity enough i didn't need to pee my pants as well....so of course i'm still feeling the effect of that alcohol and stumbled to the bathroom where i met rachel!!!! chesss! so we went back to cabes room and got our tooth brushes and went back to the bathroom and brushed our teeth! then we went to joshs room and we hung out in there (DID NOT move the entire day!) we just layed around! i was so hungry so i made some ez mac and me and rachel ate that and then i found some chips on his desk by his computer! hahah so i ate them and then we ordered bdubs and bethany and cabe went to pick it up and brought it back to us! NIIICE we didn't have to leave the room! we took a little nap! definitely wish we got a picture of that...me, gina, rachel, and josh all sleeping on the futon! then around 4 we get up! and definitely take the walk of SHAME all the way to megan sheely's room in our jamies well i was still in the clothes i passed out in from the night before! but the other girls had their jamies on! by the way...i thought that i didn't take sweats with me....oh i definitely did found them in the bottom of my bag when i got home today! CRRRAAAP! i suck!

ahhh showers i felt SOOO much better after that! and we head back to cabes dorm because bethany was getting ready to leave! so we hang out in there for awhile even though we were being beckoned to get our "asses to tke RIGHT now" we eventually got there at like 8 ish...maybe i dont really remember what time we got there! we got there and mike was sitting in the kitchen by himself...and he was kind of crappy at first..a little violent...i don't really know what i did but he kept telling me to shut up and that he wanted to hit me! hahaha then out of no where...."man my breath smells like....BIRD!!" what?! i've never heard that one before! hahahah definitely made me chuckle hahah but there is a logical explaination....he ate a pheasant pot pie and a pheasant enchilada! well it doesn't sound too tastey to me but he says it was amazing so i'm going to have to believe him on this one! hahahah then we go to the brother lounge because "snuggles" WANTS rachel...i mean he wanted her to play beer pong with him! hahah "i'm only goin to play a couple games" 9 games later! she's trahed! hahahaha pretty soon ginas trashed! crap i'm the only one sober! whatever friday night was enough drinking for me for awhile! hahah it definitely did the job! but i still had fun...what the crap?! is that leah dancing? shiiit it is and i was sober! CRRRRAP i thought i told myself i was going to save myself the embarrassment i lost enough dignity the night before...random guys coming up to me asking me "you feelin better tonight" hahahah yeah friday night was one of my more glorious moments!! hahah i lied! actually not at all! oh well at least rachel was dancing too! < she was also informed that she was the talk of the house! i told you rachel you were afraid that you would be in the corner by yourself the whole night! yeah riiight!!!! alright so i'm sitting in one of the boothes in the brother lounge with matt cabe gina rachel and mike...and of course there is ice sitting in front of us so we're eating it...and matt gets the bright idea to put it down my shit...and i went to get it out definitely went right down the pants...who wants to eat that piece!? hahahaha then theres a little battle of throwing ice at each other! hahaha that was fun! matt biting into beer can and shotgunning them and then smashing them on his head...he has a couple battle wounds from that but i'm sure it's nothing he can't handle...he did the worm and apparently him and mike danced or something but the whole room was going crazy i missed it! CRRRAP! DANGit! then the notorious booth!! hahah sitting there again with matt mike and some girl not quite sure who she was but she was betting mike that she could get undressed faster than he could..what?! WHORE who does that hahahahaha....and she wanted to take it to cold air! i don't really know what that means! but it was freaking hilarious when matt was like alright and opens the window and says lets go and shes like no lets go outside and he says why you want your nipples to be hard or what?! then she left!!! hahah but i was definitely laughing at her! but apparently she beat regina at something! we were trying to figure out what?! but we haven't got a clue! and in my opinion i don't think she won because come to find out she passed out in codys room and pissed her pants! i don't know but that doesn't sound like you won anything hunny you might wanna check the definition of winning! hahahahaha and then rachel gina ALLIE and i were hangin out in the family room just chillin and mike calls so i tell him where we are and he comes so we're all just talking! then we decide it's time for jimmy johns and i call josh and tell him to come to the family room cuz he owed me jimmy john and all of the sudden there were a bunch of people in there whatever we moved the party once again!!! hahah i think that WE WON biatch!!!!! while we're waiting for the jimmy johns to come matt gets the bright idea to do an "angel fall off of the ledge down to where the couches are! "i think chopper just fell off the cliff!" hahah no rachel... regina coaxed him down before he killed himself!!! and she also got him to lay on a couch and covered him up what a good help she is! but me being the only sober one! runs over there and tells him to get up cuz we're going to play basketball!!! hahahahahahaha classic! he falls off the couch and that's all the farther he made it! and brad laying on the ground practically passed out gives me a high five...being all nice but i mess with him too and act like i'm going to STOMP on his stomach..but that would be really mean so i helped him off the floor and i tell him to get his shoes cuz we were going to play basketball...too bad we couldn't find the ball...*wink*! hahahaha more like i hid the ball so i didn't have to play in the freezing cold with him! cabe and josh and some other guy got a ride back to the dorms and we were still there with allie! and mike told us that we could stay at tke...either way as long as i got something comfortable to sleep on i didn't care where i stayed! and he told me that he would get me one of the comfortable couches! aww thanks mike! but allie ended up taking gina rachel and i back to cabes cuz our bags and stuff were there! so theres a bunch of us in his room just hanging out and talking watching "larry the cable guy" or at least we thought so until the cops show up! what the crap?! yeah thats right i said cops! apparently we were being TOO loud during quiet hours! are you kidding me it's freaking grand prix weekend and its saturday you can't tell me that anyone really cares!? but i think everyone shit there pants when they came in yelling "WHOS ROOM IS THIS" and then asking for cabes id! CRRRRAP i thought we were safe being in the dorms apparently not! hahaha but it was cool they just told us that we needed to quiet down and shut the door! and brett remembered me from a freaking long time ago when we harassed the gymnast RA!!!! hahahah chesssss! what a QT?! then rachel and i go to joshes room and take over the futon and gina got the couch in cabes room! and then this afternoon we headed home! blaaah back to school for me! craaap oh well i think i can handle 1 week and 4 days! hopefully! alright that's enough hahah cuz you're probably bored about the stories from purdue! but i had a freaking blast!!! definitely has been the best weekend EVER!!! catch ya on the flip side

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mood: content music: watching csi

alright so last night i got a little TOO drunk but i had awesome guys taking care of me! thanks guys!!!!!!!! sorry brent about your trash can!!!! hahahah so i am basically tattling on myself with this thing but oh well it's been a LOOOONG time since i actually drank anything! at least i don't do it thursday through sunday every weekend!!!! and usually i stop so that i'm not throwing up! well last night was a treat! hahahaha anything but a freaking treat! throwing up sucks so freaking bad!!!!! definitely not going to get like that tonight but the couch was awesome! hahahaha the poor passed out drunk girl gets the couch all to herself! chesssssss!!!!!

so ben......i forget his last name but he was friends with my brother brought me back last night along with raaaccchhhell! hahah but i kept saying don't tell my brother honestly i don't know why i care because if i'm going to write in my journal about it obviously doesn't matter! honestly i'm a retard! oh well! everyone needs a weekend like this once in awhile especially after the week....well we'll just say the thursday i had hahahahahahahahaha!

beer pong was a blast last night.....even though i kind of sucked it up when i played with josh and then when i played with cody we WON!!! hell yeah! which by the way he remembered amber and sara from when they slept in his room the last time we were there! i don't know he was cool....a little goofy but cool! anways i don't have anything else to say right now! so catch ya on the flip side!

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mood: sleepy music: watching the nfl draft with josh and bethany

alright so i didn't go out last night for thirsty thursday....not a big deal i haven't gone out on thursday all semester.....part of the reason i don't care to and i have a lab at 8 in the morning on friday! and because then i will actually have my own room.....ahh i can't wait til schools over where i don't have to share a room anymore! i really can't handle this anymore! my room at home is bigger than this and it's just mine! and now i have to share it with another person...and on thursdays and sometimes wednesdays two other people!!!! so last night i was sleeping it's 240 in the morning..and they get back from marsh...of course i wake up...yeah they definitely start having sex! so i get up and grab my phone...and i sit in the hallway trying to decide who i wanna call...of course i call regina because i always do even though i know that she's not going to answer so she always has a pitiful sounding voicemail to listen to in the morning when she wakes up. and then it's CABE!! hahaha and he always answers! i love him!!! he always knows how to make me laugh.....(^.^) so i talked to him for awhile and then he had to finish studying so i just sat out there dreading coming back in........ then i'm awake so i get online and talk to josh on cabes screen name and mcatee! good times! hehehehe then i finally go to bed...but i laid there for awhile...just staring at the wall....................................... how freaking fun is that?! i think that they think i'm an idiot or something i honestly don't know?! so now i'm awake and it's pointless for me to go back to bed cuz i have class in 30 min. oh how i love my life and what it's become down here....::sigh:: :/ anyways i can't wait til i have all my crap out of this room and moved back into MY room!!! and only my room! it'll be fabulous! NO MORE roommates for me........til next year.....blaahhh!

alright so i'm going to purdue tonight! definitely can't wait it's going to be so much fun! i always have fun there and this time there's not going to be drama! they're staying here! chessss!! just me gina and rachel! how fun is that?! yeah A TON! i know! anyways i'm done for now...so i'll catch ya on the flip side!

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mood: awake music: the sounds of birds chirping outside!!!

alright so i have ran a total of..................building suspense ...........................................  21 miles!!!! thats 3 miles a day for 7 days in a row!!!!!!!! ahhh i'm doing so good but i'm not working out at all this weekend because i'll be at PURDUE!!! chesssss!! i really hope its warm or at least not freezing! and definitely NOT raining! i hate walking in the rain if i'm going somewhere! if i have nothing to do or be i love playing in the rain!!! i remember a couple of summers ago me and olivia played basketball in the rain for about 2 hours and then when we went inside my gram "pitched a fit" hahahaha cuz our clothes were drenched and what not so she made us change and she threw that stuff in the dryer!

this morning i woke up at 640...well i thought that it was later then that but i went to the bathroom and there were sunglasses sitting by the mirror...yep they are definitely mine now! chesss even though i just got new sunglasses 2 weeks ago...these were also cute so what the heck right you can always use sunglasses because mine break all the freaking time!

i hate the #7 elliptical machine....i got that one the last two days and it's freaking hard! it's a newer one so when i do the interval workout like i do every other day the resistance goes up to 8 when the incline increases! on the old ones i don't think it goes up that much!! or at least it doesn't seem like it goes up that much! i always have to change the resistance back down to five on #7 and even that's hard but oh well it's good right!? yeah thats what i thought too.

LATER DAYS  (^.^) <<that's the japanese smiley face...hahah i guess i do learn stuff in psych!

mood: bouncy music: DMB - ants marching

alright so lets see today....i met mcatee and walked to class together! cuz my first class was CANCELLED!!! yay! i made 10:48 happy...sorry 10:47....i got caught up in the conversation i was having with ms. RAAACCHHEL!!! hehehe classes were boring but its alright i got out 20 min. early from the last one so i went and ate a very healthy lunch. i'm on a roll!!!! hehehe and then i went back to my room and sat around for awhile and talked to people online cuz that's what i always do...then i got enough motivation to go to the gym!

i love the feeling after you workout! it sucks while you're doing it but afterwards i feel so much better! so anyways i ran on the elliptical for 30 min...on the interval course! HOLY CRAP i haven't sweated that much in a while! it was crazy and rather gross! but my gray shirt was no longer the color it started out i'll just say that...the entire thing was like drenched....guys were staring and then all the sudden they would turn around and walk to the trash can...they were throwing up...hahahaha crrrraaap! then i lifted a little bit...and when i say a little bit...i mean like a total of lets see....4 machines! hahah yeah i was out of there! then i came back and talked to rachel again....about fruit...haha only like the best healthy food ever!!! i love FRUIT.....so all the talk of food made her wanna run...so i headed back to the gym and shot around. oh yeah and josh though that he needed to call me and inform me that it's 4/20 like i need reminding! hahaha just kidding matt had to tell me last night that today was 4/20 or otherwise it would have just been another normal HUMP DAY!

and of course after that i had to go get some food....but seriously i am doing really well at the whole eating healthy thing...i got a lunchable not too bad, a banana, and grapes with a gatorade of course because of my freaking gay kidneys that don't know how to function normally!! blaaahhh! then back here to get so fresh and so clean clean!!! i feel great!!!!! hahahah anyways i hope this makes you happy dane!! 2 days in a row with updates!

mood: so fresh and so clean clean music: gavin degraw

hahah alright well i haven't updated in a while and dane informed me of this tonight so here goes! lets see the weekend was rather boring. didn't go out or anything but i was rather productive. i have worked out 5 days in a row now!!! that's rather impressive for me...seeing how i went 2 weeks without doing anything!

 today in psych....so me craig and natalie were just talking and what not. she was talking about all the shit she did at iu over the weekend during the little 500. it was really funny but then our professor tells us some announcement...about one of our classmates not paying attention...WAIT a tick....she said he was in drag! yeah there he is sitting in the middle section dressed as a girl!!! what the crap!? don't ask why because i missed that part when she was telling us hahahah! and so our corner...definitely slackers....but anyway the same people always sit in front of us...hilary and 3 other guys...i only know they call the one broast...but anyways they said that they heard that our professor was a lesbian...so then the rest of the class craig makes smart ass comments about that!!! it was rather entertaining though! hahahaha

I CAN'T WAIT TIL THIS WEEKEND!!! ONLY 2 MORE DAYS!!!

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mood: awake music: watching elimidate- hahahah

YAY!!!! only 2 weekends left here!!!! and i'm sorry that i don't have fun here like everyone else...and it's probably my fault because when i stay here i don't go out but you know what i don't have fun when i go out here........i have so much more fun with my FRIENDS!!! i'm sorry if this offends anyone because it's not meant to...i'm just trying to explain why i don't go out here! and i don't really know how to put that into words.......just because you have fun there doesn't mean that i do and it's not like i don't know what's it's like because i have been there and you should know by now that i'm going to do what i want no matter how much you beg and whine to me! it's not that i don't have fun hanging out with you but i feel out of place there...it's always been you three and then i was just there....so to save myself from just sitting around or tagging along i have found other things to do....and if that means going home i'm going to do it because i have fun there and i know that i am welcome and i don't feel like i have to be someone or something i'm not! and i'm sorry if i offended you when i said that i don't have fun here but i don't and i was telling you the truth i could have lied right to your face but that wouldn't have accomplished anything!

*From the outside looking in, you can't understand it. From the inside looking out you can't explain it.*

i wish i went to purdue so BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!! but what can ya do?! i'm stuck here! it's only 3 more years....i've already made it through one! ugh why'd i have to pick stupid ball state?!

ANYWAYS on a lighter note! i accomplised a lot of stuff today...my alarm went off at 530 and i had a voicemail....hehehe from josh sorry again...i miss your call everytime i suck! but then i went back to bed til 730 then i talked to my DADDY til about 8 and then i went running....it's very peaceful running early in the morning....i love it! i forgot what it was like to run in the morning! and then i came back did some physiology homework for awhile then i went and got breakfast and then i tried to finish stupid physiology questions but that didn't work cuz i was talking to rachel and my sister. i laid outside for awhile with sara and ames and then got supper. then ames and i went for a walk for about an hour! just around in circles basically...around campus...and no we (or i should i wasn't cuz you don't make fun of amy for being high) weren't high so don't say anything...josh! and i actually answered this time when you called! you're such a good friend...just for jimmy johns hahaha! i miss you, cabe and allie!!!!!!! I CAN'T WAIT TIL SUMMER!!!!!!!

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mood: thinking...blaaah! music: rascal flatts

SORRY josh i missed your drunk dial again! who would have thought thirsty thursday and i would get a drunk dial! hahaha just kidding i was sleeping though cuz i'm a loser like that! hahahaha but class this morning at 8 was not so bad! hehehe oh yeah good job making it into tke!!!

alright so i could be going to IU this weekend for little 500 with adam dane and kyle and whatever other basketball guys are going...but i'm not! i figured i should probably stay here since i haven't done that at all this semester! hehehehe but i've definitely had a lot of fun with those guys! and gina rachel and kati of course! the drunk instant message was fun last night....i got so confused though i didn't know if i was talking to rachel adam or dane! they were trying to take 100 shots of beer in 100 minutes....lets just say they didn't make it! hehehehe but 60 is pretty impressive!

blaaaaaaaahhhhh i should be studying for my physiology quiz right now oh yeah and my other quiz that i forgot about but I'M not! i can't concentrate....i just wanna be done with class for today and then it's the weekend! and then only one more week...and DOTS that's all i'm going to say! hahaha *wink* and i'm taking a bunch of my shit home next weekend!! that'll be a ton of fun i'm sure! but it's alright cuz i have to do it sometime!

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mood: ADD music: absolutely nothing......

alright so i was sitting here talking to rachel and listening to some dave matthews band! and what? the room phone starts ringing...so i look at it! hahaha and then it rings again so i get up and turn the music down and then the answering machine answers it! hahahaha WRONG number some lady for jennifer skinner...she has a job interview or she did but she doesn't know about it now and she's supposed to call the lady back! whoops poor girl! she's not going to have a job now! hehehe

i've been packing up a bunch of my stuff that i don't need here anymore!!! theres so much crap! who knew you could fit so much in one little room! but my gram is coming next week and she's going to take some home with her and then i am taking the rest of it home with me next weekend! and then we have to rearrange our furniture to how it was before we moved in or we are fined $50 how gay is that! like someone is going to the steal the furniture that comes with the dorm rooms whatever! DOUBT it!

so i'm sittin here watching american idol by myself cuz amy went with dan to the drag strip...and i'm talking to gina...she says that anwar is her favorite but she can't even remember his name! she said "antone is amazing" what a fan she is hahahaha but he is really good! i LIKE! heheheheh

ONLY 14 MORE CLASS DAYS!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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don't worry i'm bringing DOTS!!

 

mood: giddy music: sweat pea